Tuesday, December 20, 2011

*...Drenched in sparkles...*

You give me pain,
I'll weave poetry.
You ignore me,
I'll sing a melody.
All these days, while I cried myself to sleep
you sat perfect on your couch
smiling to yourself how important you are to me,
failing to notice that
each day, with each spell of silence you gifted
I untied a knot that bound us.

As I walk this winter minus your thoughts
I'll let time tell you what you lost.
Now that I am free
I am all smiles
Drenched in sparkles, making merry
I can't wait to be with someone
who, unlike you, wants to be with me!

© 2011 Neha Choudhry


One thing I always knew
if someday my heart decided to be over you,
even before you or I know it
I'll be through.

I really don't know if I ever want to see your face again,
after all the ignorance you gifted me, I wonder why I lived in this induced pain.
I might fluctuate on my stand more than a few times today,
but tomorrow,
As the fog clears
Be out of my system
or as politely I may put it,

© 2011 Neha Choudhry

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


Who needs the sun when your smile lights my world
Who needs falling stars when you yourself are my dream-come-alive
Who needs magic when your presence takes me to a trance
Who needs years when centuries pass by in a single glance.

Who needs flowery words when just a 'how was your day' sets free butterflies
Who needs lyrics when you are the voice
Who needs more colors when you already sparkled my life
Who needs the world when you are by my side.

© 2011 Neha Choudhry


written on: December 13, 2011
(early morning)

It's just some time, some moments, some smiles, some mornings that make someone an inseparable part of some memories that even time cannot erase.
Staying is not an option today but still somehow, you are here to stay...

© 2011 Neha Choudhry

Halo of your smile...:)

written on: December 10, 2011

While the world stood still, spellbound in sight of an amazing Lunar Eclipse, my evening dazzled in your sunshine surrounded by the halo of your smile.

© 2011 Neha Choudhry

Saturday, December 10, 2011

I always knew

In moments of yearning and symphony of rain
I closed the doors but left open the window, waiting in vain
Hooded a wounded heart in colors of sunshine
Escaping the eyes, emptied glasses of wine.

In series of dreams and spells of autumn
I let the wind decide my direction
Stood surprised as it lead me to your door
Did away with the knock 'cause the 'you' I search isn't anywhere anymore.

In carousel of memories and heavy snow
I set on fire the love-letters I wrote
Sat by them, embracing the daggers from the world that called me heartless, cold
Only to save you from the blame if only they unveil your game, I conjured a blindfold.

In wisp of stolen smiles and that lazy summer morn
I left them at your feet, the pages of a life forlorn
If you ever flip through, in midst of empty silences you might find
What is it like to see yourself through my eyes
The only words I never spoke, I wrote in there for you to read:
“A woman knows the face of the man she loves like a sailor knows the open sea.”
I always knew.

© 2011 Neha Choudhry

P.S. The line: “A woman knows the face of the man she loves like a sailor knows the open sea” is by Honore de Balzac (a French novelist and playwright).

Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Phenomenon called 'Dev Anand'

December 4, 2011

One date that I'll hate for all my life here on.

Started as a usual Sunday, with me sleeping in a little more than the usual 4-5 hours. I wonder why I planned on logging in twitter today, after ages. And there it hit, the news of him being gone. I don't remember when was the last time, or was there any, when everything around me stood silent still, when I stared at five words reading them again and again, wishing they weren't true. 'Evergreen Dev Anand No More'.

And the first set of tears that trickled down my face, the first breaths I took after a long pause and the emptiness inside made me realize that all these years while I watched Guide, Jewel Thief, Hare Rama Hare Krishna, Heera Panna, etc. over and over again, it was the aura of Dev Anand that enchanted me, captivated my heart and that ever-glowing smile made my day. I have loved him, always without myself knowing it until today. I still remember I was a kid of 5 or 6 when I sat down with Papa to watch Guide. The story was too mature for me but Raju Guide had made his imprint on this little girl's heart. Seeing him die in the last scenes was tough, I clung to dad asking 'Raju ab nahin aayega?' (Won't Raju ever come back?). I thank my Papa for introducing me to 'The Phenomenon' called DEV ANAND.

It is still so much of a shock to take in. I am glad I was born in a time where I lived to see the romanticism, the magic, the flirtatious smile and the Evergreen man himself- Dev Anand. Last year, chucking all my work, I went to see 'Hum Dono' (Rangeen). Despite having seen the b/w version countless times, it was an experience to see Dev Anand on the big screen. The way he looked at Sadhna, that notorious smile that his eyes held, his on-screen persona and the ever melodious 'मैं ज़िन्दगी का साथ निभाता चला गया' had me in trance of happiness that even words would fail to describe.

I tweeted him a 'Happy Journey' today, after having smiled through the tears 'following' his twitter handle @itsmedevanand.

With this, I pay my Tribute to the mesmerizing man, Dev.

"To wake up to the news of you being no more
Is something I NEVER saw coming, grieved to the core.
With all the beautiful memories, love for life and melodies that'll stay
Enchant the skies, twinkle with the stars for ever...that's all I pray.

Always Loved you Dev Anand..!
Always will."

"मौत एक ख़याल है जैसे ज़िन्दगी एक ख़याल है. न सुख है ना दुख है, न दीन है न दुनिया, न इंसान न भगवान. सिर्फ़ मैं. मैं हूं. मैं. मैं. सिर्फ़ मैं..."

आनंद मरा नहीं
  आनंद मरते नहीं...

© 2011 Neha Choudhry

Saturday, December 3, 2011

#inyourface [3]

I am rolling destiny's dice
I am in control of the pace.
You better click your heels and jump off with the mice
'Cause this Love-ship is going down with all the memories, dragged bullsh** and your ice-berged face.


© 2011 Neha Choudhry

Thursday, December 1, 2011

#inyourface [2]

So, I was making a list...
And then I realized, counting my favorite people, that you no longer are on fingertips.

Rather, your name is etched on my FIST!


© 2011 Neha Choudhry

#inyourface [1]

So I am baking a cake, just making you aware
Although I am sure, you don't care
When the delicious aroma fills up the air
Don't come asking for a bite, Don't you dare
You refused me the sugar, YOU DON'T GET ANY SHARE.

This Love is on Fire, Now all is Fair!


© 2011 Neha Choudhry


I never asked you
what I am to you,
I just voiced out
my heartfelt.

I never cared
what the world said about you,
I just listened
to my tinkling heart as it melt.

I never walked away
from the promises I made,
but it was a pleasure see you go
saying 'It's not you for whom I felt'.

So I finally breathe free
in this world of infinite possibilities,
with frozen heartbeats I am waiting
the only person I want for myself.

© 2011 Neha Choudhry