Saturday, May 26, 2012


Slow falling through mercuric skies
Shielding away from the reality
Every night I sleep hugging a million lies
Steeling myself for come what may
Waking up to a gray or sunshine day.

Turning a deaf ear to every word that mocks to tear me apart
Standing strong on the very piece of land they have tagged quicksand
Stubborn, for I trust my instincts more than what the universe might hold
With the positivity that you have instilled in my heart
I can pull out an oceanful of water from the very spot the world calls Mirage.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Friday, May 25, 2012


Breaking at a pace I cannot comprehend
Living in a hope I cannot let end
Scrolling through logs, looking for traces of you
Hating myself each second for not being around when I could
Calls I never took while you waited for me to pick up
How, today, I'd give away the world to hear you talk
So, here, I talk directly to the skies
Take everything you want, anything you like
Go ahead, take away my life
Leave him be
Help him recover to being perfectly fine
For there is no other
who I so dearly love.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Speaking Silences

Maybe today every word I'd say
Won't make anything okay
For what, a second ago, seemed like a forest fire to me
graduated to the first spell of acid leak down her cheek
When the pain became too unbearable to contain
With those pleading eyes looking into mine, she took my name
"Will it ever be...", she broke off mid-sentence
Rephrased and uttered the words which shattered me, broke the spell
"Was I ever what you needed? Was I ever loved?"
By this time I was trembling in grief, her question was too sincere
How do you make the woman you love realize
That it's always been her, that you've chosen her for life
In a fix, I stood there, trying to contemplate
How to make her hear the words I've never said
Still gazing in her eyes, I envy her today
How she never ran out of the perfect thing to say
While I always got stuck up in a two-syllable maze
I felt her grip on my hand ease
I couldn't even muster out a Please
My world was losing it's sheen
the skies were darkening
Head still held high
Crumbling inside yet on the face I couldn't muster a cry
She walked out the door
Closing it behind her
I crashed to the floor
Watching the promised forever turn forlorn
Watching the girl I love, gone.

With so much as a whimper, I finally cried
With her face behind my closed eyes, a little each moment, I died
Broken to bits, writhing, I screamed, "I need you, STAY"
The door swung open
On my face she sprung a cushion
Hugged me and said,
"When the silences speak, you don't really have to say."

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Te he encontrado en el infinito

written on: May 18, 2012
I've differentiated the world to integrate a life together
Even if I don't fit in your permutation
Or our life's vectors take different directions
The probability of us being apart falls in the null-set
For this story runs in an infinite loop.

You run, I chase
I walk away, you trace
All in all it has been a crazy ride
We walk the edges as if prepared to challenge gravity.

Sparks fly
When we look eye to eye
Love flows inside at what seems like the speed of light
At an empowering, sometimes overpowering, pressure that even Bernoulli's principle stands defied
It's as smooth sailing as a sine wave
Yet as complex as the neural maze.

Sometimes the kind of close we stumble
erases the coordinates, the lines, the world blurs
Sometimes the kind of far we fall
Even the irksome Mars-Venus thing starts to seem believable.

If I am an electron
You're my home orbital
No matter what colors of life I see
It's my nature to come back to thee.

If love was an art
I'd be Shakespeare's ghost in Mozart
If love was all numbers
Baby I do calculus in slumber.

But this love undoubtedly is science
Where we take turns to be Newton and Einstein
Fighting it out every now and then
Yet staying soldered, never breaking away.

You derive at something
I laugh on it being a foregone conclusion
I redefine, rephrase it
You make fun of it being your hypothesis' reflection.

That's the way it has been
That's the way it'll always be
In challenges, we respire
In the dark, we celebrate
In rain, camera ready, we wait for lightning to strike
In the eye of a cyclone, tejimos una historia del amor.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Ripples, Bubbles, Thunderstorms

Be the rose I choose in a million that lay strewn down the aisle
Be the star I smile at before closing my eyes and saying my wish
Be the breeze I run to breathe in when the world pollutes my core
Be the hug that envelopes and hides me in a castle wherein I reign
Be the ripple in ocean of my eyes each time I contemplate a goodbye
Be the bubble, fragile, I keep safe in my smile
Be the dream I rewind and play each night over and over again
Be the flash of lightning rushing to my rescue before I rain
Be the man you are, stay my craze
Be the recklessly running tornado I tirelessly forever chase.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

...just breathe.

Lay gazing
so inexplicably quiet
Breathing in, Breathing out.

Life waited
hanging by moments
Searching in, Searching out.

Set ablaze
the satanic dreams
Crawling in, Crawling out.

Made peace
with the pain
Bleeding in, Bleeding out.

Compressed why's
let hurt fade
Breathing in, Breathing out.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Sunday, May 13, 2012

To YOU, my Pretty Woman :)

If I wasn't this wordless
If I could just somehow know where to begin
You would find a sorry note every morning in my hand
For I know I've never been what you dreamed.

Sometimes they say I look like you
Other times I resemble dad more
With indifference in my voice, I run around all day
But there still flames a fire of love, somewhere in my core.

While everyone is all poetry and prose
Reaching out with a gift, a cake or so
And here I am, sitting a few paces from you
Trying to comprehend what to say, what to do.

All you asked me today was a little white flower
And I was too busy to get you one
And still there you are, in the kitchen, preparing something
For no matter how ungrateful I come along
Mom is Mom.

P.S. Where words end
Where ends meet
Somewhere in there
I close my eyes
Let angst, anger fall through
And hugging, I whisper 'I love you'.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

After I finished writing this one, we went for a walk and I wished her giving the very white flowers she loves.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

¡feliz cumpleaños!

Written on: May 8, 2012 
The world stage gleamed
People sang his name in chorus
A dream intertwined with reality
I stood backstage, steering clear of lights and focus.

The music percolated, ran sinusoidal or so
The earth reverberated or I swayed, I don't know
Someone tapped, I turned and behold
The very moment I imagined all my life, materialized.

Closer, he came
I nervously fiddled with my mane
He took my hand, leaned in and hugged
"Be my today, forever", he whispered.

Puzzled, I searched his eyes
"How do you know...", I tried asking as he, smilingly, stepped aside
and added, "just wait a moment or two..."
The curtains threw open, louder the cheers grew.

Unmoving, bated breath, I looked around
The whole world was here, it seemed, yet all I saw was a blur
"This one's for you" his voice echoed
With tears streaming down my face, I held his gaze.

Each second there on is etched in time
How he asked for a dance, how I was too enchanted to phrase a reply
He twirled me around, winked and smiled
And unleashed the words that left my world hypnotized.

..."I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I would stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away"...

Was too numb to react
Was too overwhelmed to breathe
Was too moved to move
Was too elated to speak

He wrapped me in his arms while I sobbed in happiness
With my heart dancing to beats of his heartbeat
I kissed him and whispered "Happy Birthday"
I woke up, smiling
*Sigh* a beautiful dream.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Thursday, May 3, 2012

When in your eyes...

Here's to the man who means the universe to me.

I don't really remember when I opened my eyes to meet yours
Must have been, forever ago, a beautiful day
Residing in the prayers, blessings and heart of an amazing man
My life is a sparkled, sunlit maze.

With my tiny little hand in your firm grip
You've walked me down the very terrains I eyed with fright
When in pitch dark, struggling with storms, searching the shore, turned up my ship
You've been the anchor holding me down; You are my pole star, my guiding light.

As this iron-fist-in-velvet-gloves self of mine looks back in time
Among a million ever-changing faces and places
You stand as her best friend, powerhouse and guardian angel
And your heart, her home, rock solid and loving as ever, keeping her treasured, loved.

Life, everyone lives
Just a few go on defining it in words that others live by
Smile, everyone does
Just a few possess the kind that shines through their eyes and stands as the most beautiful memory of someone's life.

Today, I can stand on a high-rise
And stare the sun in face
For I've been brought up in hands of the strongest man
Who calls me his charming princess

In your lap, I am, clad in a pink frock
A fountain pony dancing on my head
My two favorite cousins standing on each side
And in my hand is a dollar chocolate coin.

It's a memory
It's a rhyme
It's sunshine
It's the magical night sky
It's a walk on dew on a foggy morning
It's the shade of a tree under which I sleep
It's the answer to who I am
It's the confession of my love no words in the world can do justice to
It's my life, right here
When in your eyes, I see me.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

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