Friday, March 30, 2012

Cleanin' Out My Closet

This one is from the vault.

DatedNovember 1, 2009

If silence could speak
If words could fly to you
Just know that someone
could kiss life goodbye for you.

Sweetened by a touch
Blessing in disguise
You don't have a point percent idea
what a colorful whirlpool in me is set on by your eyes.

That one-side smile of yours
the way you softly hold my hand
Even a 'thank you' could make a 16-year old fall in love
and she didn't want to delay telling you.

Unheard she would have lost
This world of dreams and angels
Look at her now
she is happily writing your name on sea-shores with little shiny pebbles
All she ever wanted
And all she would ever want
Is to see you smiling
and when she bids farewell to the world
she lay in your arms.

© 2009 Neha Choudhry

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Thursday, March 29, 2012

Sin ti

It'll lay crumpled on the floor for another revolution round the sun

It'll shiver petrified every second you claim to have moved on

It'll drag my insides to hell in each smile I search your signature smirk

It'll be more or less a lifeless life without my galaxy, my world by my side

It'll be a thousand more excuses for me to watch trains, planes go by as I switch places front to back in lines

It'll be a few memories I doodle with smeared kohl, in shadows or dark of night

It'll be unkissed birthdays, unhugged sorrows, unshared achievements, unmissed us

It'll be me, looking for you, everywhere in the world

It'll be you, watching a hopeful me and as I close in, you turn.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Sunday, March 25, 2012


Ignite me
Burn me to ashes
Breathe in me
The venomous smoke on your lips
Hug me, crushing
For once, I too wanna feel you're afraid to let go
Take my hand for a dance
Twirl me around even if I say No
With your fingertips write your name on my arm
Finger walk up my spine, tickle me as I beg u to stop
And as you slowly exhale on the nape of my neck
whisper a word or two in my ear
Let loose my hair
laugh when I play Mr. Mustache
Smirk when I disappear somewhere in the folds
As I try on your sweatshirt
When I lay down, wordlessly numb
Curl me in your arms, let a tear or two let flow
Color the moments with me
As I draw lines to a close
Create this one memory
Wherein there is no world
Just us two
The one I can look back to
Something you won't forget, too
As you shuffle away, don't sigh
part from my lips, collide in my eyes
As mine start to rain
watch as the tears glide down my cheek
Plant a promise on my forehead
Break it the day I die
Seal a breath, pack away a part of my perfume
Catch a tear, keep safe a part of my monsoon
Softly take my name, let me hear your voice, your pain
Kiss me as you go
and with you, take me away.

So, the goodbye don't mean a thing
For you always have me, in every beat.
In a blink.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Friday, March 16, 2012


In this maze
I am lost
In this phase
I am torn
In this place
I don't belong
In a daze
I live on.

Even time cannot cajole me into forgetting
For my memories are my only constant in this variable world
Even shooting stars cannot deceive me into wishing
For I know what I can't change, I know what is now gone.

In bright sunshine
I am your shadow
In storms
I am the wind
In the shining face of the moon
I am the light
In sleep
I am your lullaby.

Try and escape now.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Do you?

Stay up all night searching one particular star
Give up ounces of reality for glimpses of a dream afar
Sing when the world sleeps, sing to smile, to breathe-in life
Closed eyes lay waiting for him to take to your side
Come across an old notebook bearing his name, containing what he wrote once, what he once was
Read through the chemical reactions as if they were works of a long lost art
And smile to yourself how time took everything you ever had, everything you would ever want
But how it forgot to erase a few pages, a zillion memories, a face that even sets time to a halt
And with that you welcome the sun each morning
Having had yet another sleepless night, reminiscing but not mourning
A love so dear to let go
A love such a hurt to let show
A love, you know, you can't live in absence of
A love so futile yet as perfect you ever had.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Jumbled dreams that rhyme

Too dark to see
Too much to speak
Too lost to find words to explain
Too hurt to spell out the pain

Was it the color that faded away
or my sight
Was it a dream that got crushed
or my life
Was it just a mere wish
or my entire world
Was it a silent promise to be back again
or the last goodbye.

Guess I'll never know
Guess I'll never show
Guess I'll let it be
Guess I'll see you with closed eyes, in sleep.

Don't open your eyes just yet
my dream would break
Don't give your voice to my name
my heart might just start beating again
Don't promise that you will stay
my life would pause in that moment
Don't vow a forever
my today sleeps disheveled.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

You're home

When you're so close to breaking
that you are scared to even breathe in,
When you're holding on to a wounded memory
just to keep yourself from leaving,
When you're standing in front of a mirror
and you can't look up, meet your own eyes,
Look into mine, I promise to not let you drown
you ain't unwanted no more, you're home.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry

Monday, March 5, 2012


As strong as I am
I can't deny the fact
How I am yearning to pause time
and crumble right there in your arms.

I know not how my world runs today
with my sun light years away
And here I am shivering in a cold world
only to melt in the warmth of your gaze.

I wish to run to a place
where I can't be found no more
Let my hideout be the ocean of your eyes
wherein I submerge and never resurface.

Thoughts flow in and out
an exhausted mind too strikes a rhyme sometime
Sitting on the periphery today, watching seconds crawl past
even a broken frozen heart beats just fine.

© 2012 Neha Choudhry